tuesdays with lily

it is 122 pm and i am still in my pajamas. holding a crying baby, feeling guilty for just feeding her 2 ounces of formula cause i seem to be out of milk. needed to journal cause i had to get these feelings out, thus the one handed typing, baby in other arm, with no capital letters and limited punctuation. was feeling overwhelmed and tired this morning so went back to bed, nursing lily in bed. now am stressed over messy house and very much needing a shower. could break down into a puddle on the floor very easily. but still thinking this is right where i need to be ...

Blessings ...

Lily is 4 weeks old now. She has already made such an impact on our lives. Soon we will not be able to imagine life without her. I feel such a calm and a sense of purpose to my life right now. There is just something about pacing to calm her crying, breastfeeding her hungry body, or just rocking her to sleep. It makes the rest of the world go away and brings me to that exact moment. I know that nothing else matters.